dammit dragons nest and your really awesome rpg hack and slash your so addictive ^.^
Building a sand castle and pouring a bucket of water all over it..
story of my life, need to change and never hurt the one person I care about, need to grow up and remember that the moment I know I have something special that I should hold onto it, hold onto it and never let it go.
I don’t want to be this person ive become now, to reckless and careless, I need to stop every once in awhile and slow down and appreciate all the effort and time that loved one has put into me, instead im out partying and becoming someone im not.. I need to stop becoming this other person im not proud of, a person I don’t even want to call myself, can I just delete this person like the one that ive lost is deleting me? im just a ghost to them know a part of there life that they don’t want anything to do with, a part that they have wasted there efforts on, trying there best to make me nothing then an image in their head to remind them to never be near me, ive lost everything and i’m now lost, days have no meaning without that person I want to just hold, everything is now gone just because I wanted to go out and have fun…
going out and having fun.. really it isn’t fun anymore.. drinking, partying, drinking and partying a endless loop I have been caught in for far to long.. a habit, plague a disease something that I no long want to be contaminated with… all its given to me is very little and all its taken away from me is everything.. I don’t want to be this person I am anymore, no longer will I be this… for it has only shown and taken everything.. I haven’t learned in the past and I have made the same mistakes with other people I love.. I cant tell them how sorry I am because to them im nothing but a bad memory, nothing but a gamble that took everything away from them and crushed it into small pieces in front of there eyes.. I cant take back what ive done.. but if I could I would do everything differently I would do everything right and hold onto that person who I have lost.. the person I have hurt so much that im just now a ghost to..
its time to change I cant be the person I use to be that I was once proud of, but I can surely be a better version of what I am now which is far from anything to be proud of.
V2 time for change
When you hear about your ex has become fat?
(lol or is it just me and i really don’t like that ex)
- John Lennon” —
like 3 hours til im on my planeee
only a few hours lefttttt
ARE YOU READY FOR ME BABY HAHAH
only one more day til i head offff SWEET
only two days getting pumped and omg want to buy something right nowwwwwww
might buy a pair of shoes for work interviews coming up
money doesn’t by happiness, not sure who said that but they were right, it doesn’t buy happiness, it freaking makes it lol
hold a roll of 700 bucks never felt soo good
only 3 days left OMGGGGGG can it go anyyy slower i cant sleeepppp
sweet 4 days to go there going to go super quick or super fast.. not sure i think next two days are going to be fast and then other two will be slow
only 5 days omg cant wait
wishing it can be saturday already and then slow down time to make the trip last longerrr.
not sure if i can not spend more money or not have the urge to just buy things i got a pair of pants today TRYING NOT TO SPEND ALL MY MONEY NOWWWW lol, have to waiiit and then spend money there buy shoes… speaking of shoes i might by black suede dress shoes.. and then a suit… and sneakers.. and shirts and then vid games a lot of vidd games lol
only 6 days left until i go on a epic adventure to Japan ^.^
excited 9 more days until i head out
im going to go visit the most odd and colourful place in the world with odd fashion and crazy people im excited to goooo
Whats this depression
constantly refreshing at life
its so depressing
i don’t no why the obsession
it just keeps on messing
i keep bouncing around
i keep hitting the ground
im going to impound
Just listen to the sound
why cant you see
when your not with me
it makes me crazy
im in anarchy
im always going to be crying
if im goodbying
im not even lying
stop your trying
no draging me along
im not that stong
im no king kong
what did i do wrong