VIEWFINDER OF LIFE

ADDICTED AGAIN

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Building a sand castle and pouring a bucket of water all over it..

story of my life, need to change and never hurt the one person I care about, need to grow up and remember that the moment I know I have something special that I should hold onto it, hold onto it and never let it go.
I don’t want to be this person ive become now, to reckless and careless, I need to stop every once in awhile and slow down and appreciate all the effort and time that loved one has put into me, instead im out partying and becoming someone im not.. I need to stop becoming this other person im not proud of, a person I don’t even want to call myself, can I just delete this person like the one that ive lost is deleting me? im just a ghost to them know a part of there life that they don’t want anything to do with, a part that they have wasted there efforts on, trying there best to make me nothing then an image in their head to remind them to never be near me, ive lost everything and i’m now lost, days have no meaning without that person I want to just hold, everything is now gone just because I wanted to go out and have fun…
going out and having fun.. really it isn’t fun anymore.. drinking, partying, drinking and partying a endless loop I have been caught in for far to long.. a habit, plague a disease something that I no long want to be contaminated with… all its given to me is very little and all its taken away from me is everything.. I don’t want to be this person I am anymore, no longer will I be this… for it has only shown and taken everything.. I haven’t learned in the past and I have made the same mistakes with other people I love.. I cant tell them how sorry I am because to them im nothing but a bad memory, nothing but a gamble that took everything away from them and crushed it into small pieces in front of there eyes.. I cant take back what ive done.. but if I could I would do everything differently I would do everything right and hold onto that person who I have lost.. the person I have hurt so much that im just now a ghost to..

its time to change I cant be the person I use to be that I was once proud of, but I can surely be a better version of what I am now which is far from anything to be proud of.

V2 time for change